School drives me crazy! I would like to just sleep for a week. Too much drama, too much work. If it's not my friends stressing me out, then it's class. I sometimes have to laugh when I think about how a year ago I was setting things up for prom and graduation, thinking that life was going to get a lot better once I left high school. Just goes to show naive I was back then. I thought college was going to be a fun adventure, I guess I was wrong. I'm tired and stressed out all the time and my emotions change as quickly as the minutes of the clock. I sometimes think maybe I'm not cut out for college or at least a private institution. Maybe my place was really in Lehman College or one of the CUNY schools. My friends here are wonderful (for the most part) and I do have SOME fun but out of the whole time I've been here I think only 2% of it was actually fun and the other 98% was work and classes and studying. College has made me feel so stupid. Everyone says I'm smart but I don't feel that way. Why don't I get certain things? How is it that I can't seem to find time for things while other people seem to have all the time in the world? I don't know anymore, I just don't know...
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